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| iv started a new web diary thing, to record the struggles and joys Susanna and i go through on our journey toward living purely for the Kingdom of God, our quest to break all ties to the kingdom of materialism.
its here:
http://letsloveoneanother.blogspot.com
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| im going camping today.
then tomorrow morning i get married.
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| i was reading this old psalter hymnal from the old reformed church. its so very sad how legal they were about anything and everything. every stupid little thing had a process and set of rules. a far cry from the Jesus i know - the homeless drifter, the raiser of the dead. when i tell people what i believe about life - that we should all live in harmony, not considering any possessions as our own, but sharing so that there are no brothers or sisters in need, people call me idealist. well... Jesus was an idealist. Jesus was a Utopian. He preached about living outside of this world, in a Kingdom that we cannot see, with a King who is more of Spirit inside of us than a monarch with a golden crown.
if you are reading this and you have never done your own research into Jesus and how He lived, i urge you to. He is very different to the Jesus that is conveyed in the structural stuffy religious liturgies.
my Jesus, my Utopian King.
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| its 5am. i cant sleep. there are to many things buzzing around my head. i have no money. im trying to give the most amazing girl iv ever met her most beautiful wedding, but i have no money. they want to charge me R10 000 to setup a tent. R10000! augh! and if we do go the informal route, which we want to, which will save us on renting chairs and tables and table clothes and stuff, then we will have a picnic, but what about people sitting on the floor all afternoon... oh man... im so stressed. where am i going to get R10 000 from? will God give it to me? when? will i first have to go into the red on my credit card? as far into the red as i can go...
i should have been a nicer person, i would have made more friends, they could have maybe helped me. if you are young and by some chance reading this, please take my advice... make friends. cherish them. go out of your way to make friends. you will need them. and be a good friend. not afraid to share.
but here i am, stressing. i dont know how im going to do this. the Lord will not give me a straight answer, so theres obviously a lesson in this. i hate learning the hard way. but i guess its because im too stubborn or too blind to see the lesson up front.
Lord help me.
please help me.
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| well, i shut down facebook.
and i've deserted myspace.
slowly i become who i want to be.
i will always have xanga though.
so, here it is, officially;
i am getting married.
5th of april.
if you are reading this,
you are invited.
she loves the Lord my God,
and she has restless feet.
she wants the life that i want.
she wants the life that i create.
its all so beautiful.
YHWH Yireh.
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